I'm actually feeling a bit nervous about the whole thing. I mean, what if this year my idea doesn't pan out? What if somehow I don't manage my time as well? After writing out a complete outline exactly twenty days ago, I haven't really done any concrete planning.
Oh sure, I've thought about titles and have been inspired by random things to add something to the story, but well, it's nothing definite. Lately I've just come back home from work extremely tired and more than vaguely stressed out. All I want to do is to take a shower and crawl into bed.
I want so desperately to talk to somebody in their flesh and blood about writing a novel in a month but I'm so afraid that they will dismiss me as a stupid girl who doesn't know her priorities. And writing is such an egotistical subject--whenever I do talk about it, I feel as if I'm just blowing up a lot of hot air. It doesn't help that everyone I know around here are older and a hell of a lot more serious.
