What's wrong with me? I feel like I'm accomplishing nothing. I feel like a wannabe and a poser because I only write in my "free time", i.e. time I could spend sleeping or eating or reading more science papers. Perhaps it is only my perception that only "real" novelists write full time and that anyone cranking out words in the dead of night is merely an amateur.
The whole problem, I suppose, are people's assumptions that students like me have tons of time to work on a novel. Tell me, where's the extra time after I subtract my 40-50 hours a week in the lab, the weekends I spend at the library, or the nights spent studying? Never mind, it just feels like a stupid endeavor trying to desperately catch up to full-time novelists, the unemployed, and the sleepless hyped up on too much caffeine.
